Motherhood Confessions

On Bits and Pieces a blog I enjoy; she posted her motherhood confessions and encouraged her readers to do the same.
So here goes:
1. I never think of myself as a mother and am kind of surprised that I have kids
2. I would love to have had a boy but secretly glad that I have only girls.
3. I still have baby weight even though my "baby" is 15
4. My greatest fear is that something will happen to the girls, it never leaves my mind and I try and not let it change what I let them do.
5. I am always amazed that they have turned out to be good kids.
6.I am so thankful that they have cousins and Aunts, Uncles and Grandparents that love them, takes some pressure off of me,
7. Sometimes I enjoy being alone and stay out of the house when they are needy.
8. I hope they stay close to me when they are adults.
9. I am not as disciplined as I sould be with them, I am the "nice" one in the house.
10. It is important to me that my kids friends like me and feel comfortable at the house even though I complain about the house always being dirty.
11. I am sad that Megan is going away to college in the Fall but I am also proud of her for being able to leave home.
12. I wish that we would have had more kids but I have been tired for 17 years and do not know how we could have managed more.
13. I am jealous that they have their whole lives ahead of them but would not want to be a teenager again for any amount of money
14. I hope they are happy and I have taught them the skills that they will need in life; but don't think that I have.